Wednesday, June 24, 2009
L.O.V.E
What is the meaning of L.O.V.E ????????
True L.O.V.E
What is the meaning of True L.O.V.E ??????
My life is so messed up....*HATE IT*
AND I'M HERE TO SPEAK OUT TO EVERYONE THAT....I HATE U NEO CHEE KIONG...
DUN COME DESTROY OUR AFFAIRS....
U WANT TO PLAY AROUND WITH GALS...OR DO ALL SUCH HANKY PANKY STUFFS...U GO AHEAD WITH URSELF...
PLEASE DON'T DRAG ANYONE ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO ARE ATTACHED MEN TO JOIN IN WITH U...FUCK! U UNDERSTAND....
♥ a butterfly landed @
1:12 AM
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Bin Bin asked me to blog...LOL..
Ok...Hubby sold his Remus Exhaust Pipe...
I felt so dishearten...
Coz he is so reluctant to sell it actually..He love is so much but in the end he choose to sell it...SIGH!
He came to fetch me from work ytd after he sold his exhaust....He passed me the money and asked mi to count...but i rejected him and din even wan to see the money...lol...(Make me feel so uneasy when he sold his love things...coz he said "Sometimes in life must make sacrifice to the ones that you love".
I was like OMG...I do not knw exactly what he mean...but my six sense told me that he gonna give me something for our anniversary or my birthday...(This is only my six sense.)
Please Don't give me a heart-attack hubby...:)
Oh ya...My accounting result is out...Yes! I did it this time round....But my POE result not yet out...kinda stress and scare of it...*Pray Hard for me plz*
Was chatting with weiling just now on msn...Hmm...i got to knw from her that...actually those who worked in family business is actually very unhappy in their working environment...
We made a promised to each other that we gonna meet up next week and have dinner...and of coz do some sharing...ya...ok...see u soon weiling...please take care of urself and dun think too much...Sorry that i couldn't make it for later on dinner...but next week ok...i promised...LOL...
Tata...Fion is stressed at work...Fion pray that nxt week she will close 1 deal...
♥ a butterfly landed @
2:34 AM
Monday, June 15, 2009
Hi everyone!!! (Taught by Pearly Lin Yan Bin Binny)
How's life?
I'm Lifeless...
It's already mid of June...
I'm getting more n more excited about my holiday trip....
I need to get confirmation from hubby when is he gg to take leave before i book the tickets...
It's gonna be a simple and budget trip...but i expect it to be a fun and enjoyable trip...
It will combines with our anniversary cum my 22nd birthday...
Coz both of us are too busy and our schedule is very tight...
It might be a belated celebration but it's ok...coz really NO CHOICE...
this few days...hubby is weird...
Keep likes to say things to make mi almost frustrated...
When i'm a little unhappy...i can feel in his heart he is laughing...
And i asked him what thing this n that...he told mi...SECRET*
My eyes rolling up and down thinking what secret is that....
And so...i msged him something and he replied...
He: " Baby you cannot like that you know...U always knw i is say say only...If not there won't be my secret for you le..."
Again...I start to think a lot alot...and of coz excited...wahahahah...
Was guessing...is it my present for anniversary and birthday??? wahahaha...Is he gg to clear my wishlist stated on the left....whahahahaha....
Anw, I already got an idea wad to get for him...It will be secret also...hahaha...
Thanks Bing Long for giving me advise on what to get for him....wahaha....*ZIP*
Tht's all...I'm jus lifeless...
just want to think of gg relax only...
♥ a butterfly landed @
10:56 PM
Friday, June 12, 2009
It's friday...
But i'm not excited about it...
Reason because fatty is having duty all the way till sunday...
So my weekend is bored...
Was sharing with fatty baby last nitez regarding my career...
Asking him whether he prefer me to be self-employed or employee...
Surprisingly, he is happy for what i am now being self-employed...of coz there's always pros and cons...
Of coz, i belived he understand me well too...coz he mentioned if only you can tolerate pple bullying you if u r employee then u go ahead being employee...
So, the answer is so clear cut...
Oh ya, fatty is joining me as grassroots leader soon...I'm happy with tht...coz for the past few years i have been sharing with him about being a grassroots...it seems like it doesn't interest him...but now, he is willing and excited for being a grassroots leader soon...*Claps Claps*
Fatty has been a good boy recently...Buy lunch n we ate tgt while i'm at work...accompanied me while i'm working till i off work and we went back tgt for dinner...I appreciated it and super duper happy abt it...or even fetching me to work...and coz of fetching me to work...he is being fine $150 and 6 demerit points for speeding....sigh! Feel bad about it...BUT...i did warned him not to speed and true enuff things happened...sumtimes, i really can sense things gonna happened to him...it's not first time already. :) (And, he gave me bad remarks like "u mouth ar dot dot dot dot dot". LOL
And and, i'm damn excited for our trip...he's gg to plan it...i can't wait to go out of singapore custom..i need R&R (Rest & Relax).
♥ a butterfly landed @
2:34 AM
Monday, June 8, 2009
Life is all about.............................................................?????
What hubby said is totally true about me....
"Why can't I just have a simple life???"
"Why am I always having high expectation???"
Sigh!
We are living in a stressful life in Singapore. Agree?
My academy results will be releasing in 2 weeks time...Am i gg to make it this time round? I do not know.
I just pray hard that i would be able to make it and let me fully concentrate on my career....Coz i knw studying and working at the same time IT'S HARD!
Whether will I continue to be a self-employed or be an employee, I'm confused totally.
There are so much things happening recently but i'm just lost of words.
I came across this blog entry from binny's friend. It is so meaningful.
Here it goes......
The World.
This post is meant for all the heartbrokens and heartbreakers out there.
To my friends, I know this is hard, I know it seems like you are torn apart, feels like a sharp knife piercing thru ur heart, feels like the whole world is against you, feels so f up and confused. Sometimes u got so used to it that you are already numbed and frozen. Who can see the tears and blood inside of you caused by a single word, love? And so i say, screw love..
One may argue that its a bond thingy which outside party can never understand. Some people get stucked while some ppl moved on. I'd say almost 80% are unable to carry on living happily without thinking about the person at all, the heartbreaker. If this is an issue between 2 parties which outsiders can never comprehend nor comment on, then why the fcuk are there so many ppl experiencing the same shyt? It happens again and again and again and again and worst still, occurs on all my beloved friends out there. I'd like to ask you guys to be strong and not to think about it anymore but even as a third party, I can already felt all the hidden emotions when we were out together. Smiles, laughters and happiness are just blurred images portrayed to deceive the public eyes. Inside the real you contain a broken heart, ripped apart by the heartbreaker.
I used to think that heartbreakers are cool. Famous for their cold-bloodiness and ignorance no matter what happens. Always able to get into a r/s and get out of it with just a *snap* of the fingers. Well, I used to think that they were guys. And finally i realized i may be wrong afterall. The opposite sex can be as cruel and as cold too.
(At this very instance i stopped blogging n went downstair for a smoke wiv nacio and maogui to chat about what we are best at chatting about: life n love. Funnily enough god muz haf meant for this to happen becoz my dad came down n finally, realized i smoke. Guess what happened? Well, he told me not to smoke so much and the very next min he took a cigarette from me n off he goes. So, what can i say? Alright back to the main topic..)
**As much as i wanna say, im not trying to bitch, bark, rant, cry, whine or preach like someone who's experienced or an expert in this field for i doubt anyone is. I ain't no saint either. So, i was talking about the opposite sex. Well, it seems like the trend or fashion has changed from the male domain of so called 'players', 'playboys', 'bastards', 'sex maniacs', 'flirts' to the female domain which i would best conclude as 'sperms addicts'. Its kinda offensive but its meant to be funny though. Hope nobody minds. Seems like the female side is taking over and dominating!**
Nonetheless, the world revolves as the ppl changes. A causes B to be upset. B became crazee and spread the virus to C. C either move on or became like B and continue spreading the disease. Its a never ending story. I sincerely feel that the world is coming to an end very very soon. With all the SARS, Swine flu, Tsunami, Aircraft missing, Terrorism and most importantly, LOVE screwing us all around, upside down, inside out, to and fro in almost every single fcuking way.
I LOVE... twist the word 'love' around and it becomes 'evol'. I intrepreted it as 'evolving' and it sounds like 'evil'(evol). So its because of the 'i' element that turns evol into evil and thus, love is portrayed as the outer image. So is love something that is continueously evolving and something evil? I smell something sninister here. *sniff*
Its up to individual perceptions to look at things from ur own standpoint or view. At this very moment i'm having a pair of sore eyes which is definitely uncomfortable but i felt that i am able to 'see' the world better than with normal eyes. As i looked upon ppl who are in pain, i felt the pain as well. Perhaps this is why sometimes they say the blind can 'see' better. (Honestly speaking, i ran out of what to say and need to go to bed now.)
Alright, my eyes have yet to recover and i'd probably take another MC tmr. Hopefully its not some serious eyes infection or else i'm really screwed. Oh yea talking about screwing, don't you guys feel that the world is already screwed enough with work causing stress and putting aside family problems, friendship problems, we thought we could find joy in love but it is constantly screwing us up? Why do ppl get emotional and sad? Why do fights break out in clubs? Why sometimes people couldn't concentrate on what they r doing? Why do people cry uncontrollably? Why do people commit suicide? Rings a bell? You know the answer.
As a final note, i just wanna wish all the heartbrokents to be happy and move on although these words r 99.9% useless. It doesn't matter what the other party think, it doesn't matter what others think, what is important is what you are thinking. 'Alter your attitude and you change your life.' The person who loves you will not make you cry and the person who made you cry ain't worth your love. Forget it if you don't wanna be killed by the love toxic.
To all the heartbreakers, you might have been part of the above category before and as a result you're like this. Nothing much to say. Nothing much to do. I just hope that we have never met. The world is round and what goes around, comes around. Move on.
1.10am now. Bedtime. Hope there ain't anymore nightmares. Shall continue blogging when i have the time. Take care everyone and try to find happiness. Seek and you will find.
With evol,
Casper
Credits to Casper
♥ a butterfly landed @
11:29 PM
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Happy Birthday to Joanna Nicole Cai Pei Zhen!!!!
I love this song..."Amazing Grace"
http://www.imeem.com/people/OxCjuL/music/uyRCvzke/charlotte-church-amazing-grace/
Nothing interesting about my life recenlty...
Coz as usual i'm lifeless...work work work...
Will be on course in July...And it falls on my anniversay...*kao*
But nvm...coz i knw hubby got some plans though it's belated coz both of us are just busy...
I feel a little happy when he told me he gonna plan for our holiday trip...lol...Hope it turns out well and memorable day...I know he is gg to tie up our anniversary with my birthday too...due to our tight schedule...nvm i'm fine with it so long u r there to celebrate with me coz rmb last yr? he did not attend my 21st...coz of NS...
I will be gg shopping with Binny tml...we are gg to look for our Branded Goods...hahaha...Of coz for my June babies presents too...
ok...today will be a long day for mi...as i have meetings at CC...SIGH!!!
ya..tht's all...nth much...
♥ a butterfly landed @
1:22 AM
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I'm getting more n more lazy in work...No motivation at all...
Keep feeling tired...
Recently, hubby has been a good boy...LOL...
Coz he fetched me to and fro from work...(Big Thank U, hubby)
I meeting binny tonight for jogging...Yes, I wanna slim...
Friday, will be meeting her again for some shopping...I got lotsa things to buy you knw....(Shopping List never empty)
Of coz my pocket gg to have BIG HOLE soon...coz a lot of june babies too...Total of 5 presents to buy at this moment...OMG~
Hubby's pay day coming soon also...haha...which means i gt more shopping allowance from him again....lol...and ya...he promised to buy me a bag...
♥ a butterfly landed @
12:40 AM
